ok.  so i was getting into a debate of the best finishers.  

my favorites:
1- spike ddt
2- diamond cutter
3- jacknife power bomb
4- stone cold stunner
5- the big leg drop

submissions:
1- four leaf clover
2- angle lock
3- mandible claw
4- walls of jericho
5- million dollar dream

what's in you five...

long time no post.

a lot has changed in the last few weeks to say the least. being able to stay home the last month and a half with the new baby was amazing. i cant believe how much he has grown. now he is at that stage where he is kinda able to recognize you face and will laugh once a while if you catch him in a good mood. its pretty cool to get him to smile. everyone kept telling us it was going to be hard, but i dont think that "hard" is the right word to describe it...i'd call it "different." at times things do get hard but you learn to deal with it and adapt accordingly, but without a doubt things arent as easy as the pre-elijah days. just getting out of the house to go to safeway is a miracle all in itself let alone trying to take a nice shower that lasts long enough before he wakes from his nap. i know i'm complaining but rosanna is truly taking the most of it. she is a trooper and i love her for that. feels strange to say but i like being a parent.

current thoughts:
-it seems as i get older the christmas season is slowly eating away at my once favorite treasured holiday. way too much consumer driven ideology.

-christmas sales want me to buy a new tv. lcd hdtv. mmm

-why do i need to compare myself with other people? does other people success show that im that lazy or that they are that determined?

-when is it a good time for anything?

-nice

but tuesday is just as bad.

tomorrow is the day we have been waiting for the last nine months. we cant wait.

there is nothing like waiting for things to happen, especially when you have no control over it. the latest news is that it can happen anytime now but we need to wait till nature takes over and does its thing.

i always envisioned me being at work and getting the call that she is going in to labor and i would have a nasty ass commute ahead of me. i figure i would at least get one speeding ticket and totally abuse the hov lane. instead i took my leave a little earlier than expected but i wasnt any use at work anyhow. it is nice to be home spending time with family.

with all this down time i cant help but think what life is going to be like when he comes. laying in bed i wonder how long will it be till we get a full night of uninterrupted sleep. what is going to a movie or out to dinner going to be like? or even the simple things changing a diaper away from home. how about the big milestones; first time walking, talking, first day of school, and all the way in the future of me being a grampa. what is our relationship going to be like? scary thing is that i know for sure this isnt the only child on the way.

oh look! more waiting...

we had a little glimmer of hope with the possibility of the baby arriving early. posey was having tons of contractions the other day. we decided to take her swimming to relieve some of her back aches and after that nothing. elijah isnt even out yet and he already juked us.

and now we wait.

if you haven't been informed yet, i never know who visits this, posey and i are expecting our first child this november. last wednesday we had the big ultrasound to make sure the baby was doing ok and to see what we were having. at first i wanted to keep the gender of the baby a surprise but posey kept on me about wanting to know before hand. my argument was that i didn't want to get myself worked up or upset if it was one or the other. boy or girl i knew it wouldn't change how i felt about it. i finally caved in and we agreed that we would find out the gender, she promised that the next child it will be kept a surprise.

at the hospital i could tell that posey was getting really anxious about the exam. i was too, but i still feel a little detached if that makes anysense. watching your wife get a tummy and get to feel the baby move, i feel a little cheated. granted i will never have to birth a child, thank god, but i feel like i've done my part made the deposit and all i could do is sit back and watch her tummy get bigger.

all morning we were trying to guess what is in there. in my mind and so with the rest of my family we predicted that it was going to be a girl. my parents, especially my mom wants it to be a girl. she was the only girl out of seven brothers and all she had were boys. so its only fair that we give her a granddaughter. i think posey wants a girl but im not so sure if i want one. the week leading to the exam i had vivid dreams of having a daughter at different times from toddler age to teen years. i always woke up confused. watching your little girl crawling around and then BAM fast forward to teen years she is bringing home a boyfriend. i know what little boys do to little girls! i was one of them. im more afraid of that happening than anything else if it is a girl. im just afraid, only having brothers i wouldn't even know where to begin on how to treat a girl. do i baby them and protect them or do i let them get bumps and bruises? either way it will be blessing. and if its a boy all i need to do is remind him to keep his penis in his pants or the tooth fairy will chop it off.

if you haven't witnessed an ultrasound in person let alone knowing that there is a living this growing if your wife and here is what it looks like, it's pretty awesome to say the least. the nurse lady starts probing around poseys stomach with the ultrasound thingy and up pops the outline of our baby on the computer monitor. it has been a long time from the first ultrasound where the baby looked more like a gummy bear than a human. but now we could see everything and it looks human which is always a good start. two arms, two legs, ten fingers, ten toes, two eyes, two ears, nose, mouth all looks good. the nurse lady was having a hard time taking good pictures because the baby kept moving around. at one point she kept it stationary and we were able to watch the fire off a few kicks, yup it gets that from me!

while examining the lower extremities i thought i saw something familiar but the camera thingy moved to a different spot, and at that time the nurse lady said that she is usually pretty hesitant to say what gender babies are but she was 100% sure about this one and she asked if we were ready. maybe what i saw was just something else, dont want to get my hopes up you know. in unison posey and i say "yes." watching the screen, she pans down and low and behold we see a mighty penis. =) without any doubt it was a boy. our son was totally spread eagle and letting it all hang out for us to see. he's a tripod.

so im going to have a son! no longer do we have to refer to the baby as "it" or "the baby." no more worrying about the awkward puberty stage of having a daughter or having to scare away boyfriends, atleast for now. now i have a son to mow the grass and take out the trash. after the exam posey whispered to me that she was secretly wanting to have a boy.

it is strange to think what the future is going to be like for my new family. before it was posey and i with our pets. now we have another addition and it will be created by us, a person that will have its own likes dislikes thoughts and emotions. in some distant future he will probably go through the same experiences and emotions that im having right now. just continuing the cycle of like i guess.

i hope that posey and i become great parents like our own, that our children will respect. posey has this natural gift with children but sometimes i wonder how am i going to do it. i never really had experiences with babies so im feeling super unprepared. im proud to admit that i have never ever changed a poopy diaper. i read somewhere that newborn poop like 7 or 10 times a day, great trial by fire. i wonder about what is he going to be like when he grows up. what is our relationship going to be like? i entertain the idea that there is going to be differences of opinion between us and im sure we will butt heads but i kinda look forward to that. i yet have a lot to learn and grow emotionally but i look forward to it all.

long time no post.

time has been moving fast lately. new years came and gone, valentines day just passed--i was caught off guard-- and now thoughts of spring break? some weeks it feels like its just a day has passed then its the weekend only to continue the cycle all over again. i guess it's a good thing to be busy, better than sitting around scratching my ass trying to find something better to do.

next month posey and i are moving to a new apartment. goodbye one bedroom and hello to two bedroom goodness. now i have a place to hide when posey finds out i didnt do the dishes. yeah i know it's not a house, but we are working towards it. plus we will need the extra room when the baby comes right? jk...thats a whole different post in itself. im felling a little melencoly about the move. this was our first place together and a lot of milestones happened here. it will be a bittersweet move.

i finally had built enough courage to see if i want to go to school for acupuncture and traditional chinese medicine this weekend. saturday morning i dragged posey to an open house that bastyr university was holding at their campus in kenmore. really nice place, but damn was it cold. it felt like the going to orientation for the first time at uw but 1/100 the scale. a lot less people but more than i expected if that makes sense, and even few from out of state. one guy i met was from NY, he had to endure a couple flight delays due to the storm on the eastcoast and was staying in town for that day only. bastyr's reputation must be pretty good for someone to make a trek like that.

after meeting and talking with a few of the faculty i felt almost giddy about thoughts of going back to school. i have been contemplating this for years, and after going to the open house and seeing and interacting with what could possibly be me in a few years further affirms my interest. so far nothing is set in stone, a lot of things need to happen before i commit. i still need to begin the application process and jump through hoops, posey needs to finish her student teaching, and my favorite save up some monies. we were joking that once she starts teaching full time i could go back to school but once im done she will go back to get her masters, after that i get my doctorate and so forth...therefore we will be perpetual students with tones of student debt living in a two bedroom apartment with our pets. huray for us!

took the doggy to gas works this morning to test his new fetching ability. he was doing really good. if you havent been to gas works park there is this rock ledge that follows the shoreline. well baxter was running back and forth on it and slipped and fell in the water. it was funny because he hates the water. you could see the panic in his eyes. i didnt know that he could swim, i guess fear does that to you. needless to say he was freezing his ass off.

if any of you watched trading spouses tonight youre probably feeling the same way. what a dip shit. youre so fucking retarded. burn in hell.

i love ikea. this is the second weekend that rosanna and i went to visit this grown-ups toy store. last week we bought a new book case and a make shift dinning table and today we went to meet up with my family. after fighting for a parking space we see my brothers next to the kiss 106.1 booth. the kiss booth was raffling tickets for jingle bell bash #7. rosanna and i signed in a minute before they were to draw the winner. they call the first person, no show. next they call 'rosanna lampano?' sweet. we have two free tickets. but after looking at the line up i doubt id even take one if they were giving them away free. c'mon. i dont recognized half of the names plus bsb is going to be there. huray! the pussy cat dolls are the only thing im looking forward to.